Friday, July 11, 2014

Dear P


Dear Sweet P,

You are two!  I'm not going to lie, it kinda makes me sad to say that.  I feel like you are now officially a toddler, and no longer my baby-baby.  
This past year has brought so many great memories.  You have changed so much in one year that it is weird to look at photos of you from your first year of life.   
You have become 'mommy's little helper', miss independent, quite sassy, Chickfila's number 1 customer, and a Mickey Mouse Clubhouse enthusiast.  
You are starting to speak in sentences and I love hearing your little voice, except for the occasional banshee screams that you like to do for. no. reason. at. all.  
You also LOVE to be read to, chased around the house, and to go 'ou-side' (outside).
My favorite thing you do is when you tell me how excited you are about something.  You are so stink'n cute!
I'm excited to see what this next year brings, to watch your personality develop, and see you learn new things.  

Baby girl, I love you to the moon and back.  You are my favorite, ever-ever.
Happy Birthday!
Love, 
Mommy


Thursday, July 10, 2014

Sweet P turns 2!

My Sweet P is 2 years old ya'll!
Oh man is it bittersweet to say that.

We had a great day besides the fact that she had hand, foot, and mouth and the AC went out about 30 minutes before her party.  (Yes, this momma was stressed.)

But everything went well, and our Sweet P was well loved.
















Goodness my kid is cute!  

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Thank you!

I just wanted to say  THANK YOU so much to everyone for your kind responses to my blog post on Friday.  
I received the sweetest comments, Facebook messages, emails, and text messages over the weekend.  
God has been good in reviving my soul over the past few days and you gals were a part of that.  
I wanted to share a verse that has been on repeat in my thoughts and encourage you to memorize it with me.  


I am thankful for you all and your encouragement!
Love, 
Laura


Friday, June 20, 2014

Vulnerable

So I guess it has been months since I last did this thing called blogging.

There are reasons...

Many reasons.

But basically, I didn't feel like writing.  I didn't feel like I had anything worth saying.  So I didn't say anything.

But that is not all.

There has also been a struggle going on in my heart.  One that I hesitate to write about, but I feel prompted to share.  So I'm going to get vulnerable.

Before Mr. T and I had Sweet P, we struggled to get pregnant.  I kind of hate using the word struggled, because compared to some women, ours was not much of a struggle.  But according to the Dr.s, there was no rhyme or reason why I should not be getting pregnant.  I just wasn't.  Eventually, I was put on fertility meds, and 2 rounds later along came our daughter.

During my pregnancy and even afterwards, I was confident that getting pregnant and having a child would somehow 'right' my body, and having baby 2 would be easy.  But it didn't happen.

This is where I struggle to speak about this journey.  I am thankful to the moon and back for our Sweet P, and see God's blessings on Mr. T and I by giving her to us.  But there is still that sadness that lurks in the corners of my heart, wanting another child that I cannot seem to have.  I do not want to seem ungrateful, or have a complaining spirit.  There are women out there who have miscarriage, after miscarriage, or have tried everything and still cannot get pregnant and my heart BREAKS for them.  I have never experienced that and would never compare my story to theirs. My story is my own, and I recognize that God is writing it.

But, the desire and struggle for another child is very real.  And for me, it's been a lonely road.

The journey has not been quite as emotional since we already have a child, and if anything, it causes me to cherish her even more.  But I struggle to speak about it since my plight is not that too great of a burden.  Obviously, there are worse things I could be facing.

But, God has been working in my heart.  I am recognizing more and more that my desire is a godly one, and not something to be ashamed of.  I believe He wants us to desire to have many children, whether naturally, through adoption, or spiritually.  I just need to learn to not exalt my desires above his.

We may never have another child.  It is painful to say that, but I need to be open about it.  I'm sure I'm not the only mom that has experienced this, but it's not too often that I hear the raw honesty about this specific struggle.

We are praying fervently about our next steps and God's will for our lives.  It's frustrating to not have answers, and I don't know that we will ever get any.  But this statement with always ring true for me, 'He is still good.'


Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Crawling out of the Dumps

Is winter over yet?

Sorry, I have not been around.  I have found myself in a funk that I just can't seem to shake, except for the last few days, which have been W O N D E R F U L with 70 degree weather.

This year winter has really kicked me in the rear.  I feel like the last few months have just loomed over my head, with sickness, anxiousness, worry, and the plain old blues.  For a while there it seemed like one of us was sick with something every weekend.  Then there were some changes with Mr. T's job which made me a little anxious (everything is good now), and few other issues swirling around that now are seeming to settle in the dust.  

So this morning, I decided to make a conscientious effort to start 'crawling out of the dumps' and have better days.  I also started doing the Whole 30 cleanse.  Today is day 3, and let me tell you it has not been easy.  But I hear it starts to get better after the first few days.  I can already tell a little bit of a difference.  I don't feel quite as lethargic as I would at the end of a typical day.  I'm still tired, but not that gross kinda feeling that I used to have.  I will try to share some recipes that I have used already, and ones that I plan to use.  

Everything else in our life is good.  Sweet P is beginning to enter into the 'Terrible Two's' stage, but really for the most part, she is still just as sweet as ever.  She's just learning to be more independent, and sometimes it gets her into trouble.  

I'll leave you with some photos, and hopefully it won't be months before you hear from me again!

Laura





Monday, December 9, 2013

Tis the Season...

Hey y'all!  

Sorry I haven't been around here for a while.  I always get distracted when the holidays come around.  And I luv it!

I love seeing all the lights, listening to the holiday music, eating great food, seeing the people I love, and making new memories.  Especially since I now have a little one that can start to enjoy these things too.  

So, since I get so distracted, and since it will probably get worse as Christmas gets closer, I am going to officially take a break from the blog world until the New Year gets here.  

But in the mean time, enjoy some photos from the past couple of months.

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!















Friday, November 8, 2013

From of Old


Have you ever thought about the fact that you know a God from old? (Of course I'm talking to those of you who know God as your personal savior, and if you don't, I would love to tell you how.)  

It is crazy to me to think that God's love, faithfulness, kindness, goodness...his very being has been around since...well...there was never really a time when it wasn't.  

Does that not blow your mind?  I mean, for reals, think about it.  

God has ALWAYS existed.  He has ALWAYS been around.  Before earth was created, it was just him.  Before anything that we have come to know, before history happened, there was God.  Gives a whole new meaning to 'from of old', right?

I'm not necessarily writing to make us dwell on how 'old' God is, but just the fact that he has been around since before we can imagine.  

So with that thought in mind, why wouldn't we trust his word, and his promises, and his love and goodness?  Honestly, this is a question more for myself than it is for anyone else.  Why do I struggle with trusting God?  Wouldn't he be the most trustworthy person ever? Ever, ever?  I mean, he is the author of everything I know, and don't know.  He was around before I came into being, and will still be around long after my bones dry up.  He is a 'know it all', literally.  His wisdom exceeds everything.  

So why do I struggle?

I mean, I know the answer.  I have a sin nature, and I hate it.  It makes me struggle.  And all I can do is remember verse 7 from above, and I know that the God from of old will do what he says.  

Do you struggle with trusting God?  I do.  A lot.  If I may, knowing God's age, or lack thereof, should be proof enough that he knows what he is doing and that we should trust him.  I seriously have to remind myself of this all. the. time.  

God loves us, ya'll, and desperately wants us to know his character and bestow his wisdom and goodness on us.

I know this post is a little random, but God just put this on my heart and I wanted to share.

Love ya'll!
Laura  


Monday, November 4, 2013

The countdown begins...

In case you haven't noticed it's November!!!
That means I get to start counting down till Thanksgiving and Christmas!!
I lurve the holidays.  I mean lurrrvvee.  For reals.

I have already bought some new Christmas ornaments for our tree and even watched Elf one evening.  Lurve.

So this year, Mr. T and I are making Holiday goals/list - things that we want to make a point of doing as a family for Thanksgiving and Christmas.  (Rest assured that the movie 'Christmas Vacation' will be on that list.  Oh, cousin Eddie...) List coming soon.

Anyway, I wanted to share a few photos from a pumpkin farm we visited a couple weeks ago.  So much fun!








PS.  Follow me on instagram to see my 25 days of things I'm thankful for, starting today.  


Thursday, October 31, 2013

31 Day Challenge: Day 31

Last day!  Yay!  You did it!  We did it!
Thank you, thank you, thank you for sticking with me through this challenge.  I hope that all these verses that you have memorized will stick with you and come to mind when you need them.
Here is the last day's verses:


I'm thankful for you all!
Laura

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

31 Day Challenge: Day 30

One more day left.
How ya'll doing?  I've been busting my butt to make up for the day's I've missed.  But honestly I'm loving having these verses in my head and on my heart.